c.l.u.e.l.e.s.s m.e

2012

2012-01-03T08:15:00.000+08:00

2012

hasbunaallah wa ni' mal wakil

Ya Allah,
Permudahkanlah :)

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Busy

2011-10-16T09:53:00.001+08:00

busy

someone's been very very busy

our european tour

my first marathon

crush, crashes and blind dates

self discovery

and yada yada yada..

what can i say, i am a BUSY girl you know :p

what is it to complain about.
Alhamdulillah

Alive

2011-10-08T19:43:00.002+08:00

alive

dance to this beat :p

My heart’s alive again :)
And now it is for the RIGHT reasons.

Pray.GodSpeedLove.

Sayang

2011-10-03T23:57:00.000+08:00

sayang

-points to ponder-

when come to think of if,

why does God the Almighty command us to be good to our parents before anyone else?

its logical, if you cant even take care and be obedient to your parents,

who took care of us since we're little,

who clothe us,

who feed us,

who took care of us when we're sick,

who love us unconditionally,

how is it you're to good to people who are a complete stranger?

#pointstoponder

in HD?

2011-10-03T00:08:00.000+08:00

in hd?

totally in high def ;p

when i'm being spontaneous

Ghost

2011-10-02T23:51:00.002+08:00

ghost

ghost buster V1.0

yeah.. for once you're right

we shall not be afraid of the dead

as the dead can't harm you

but the living can

especially people like you

Alhamdulillah, i guess my prayers has been answered

i guess i will not be seeing you that often

if i were to see you, it will be served as a reminder of things that are bad, to be avoided,

i guess, He must want me to be on my toes, every time

never to loose my sight of things, Alhamdulillah, all praise to you God the Almighty

till then,

xoxo,zurabes

All Accross Europe :)

2011-09-19T20:18:00.001+08:00

all across europe

eurotrip part-4

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPad

Post

2011-09-03T23:55:00.001+08:00

post

'op' results

Alhamdulillah, with the mercy of Allah

my expectation of this year's Ramadan has been met (at least to my small standard)

earlier entering the holy month of Ramadan,
i hope and pray for a better Ramadan than one's that i had the previous year

changes were made then, here and there,

i do hope all my 'efforts' are accepted by Him

i do hope that the good change will stays through and through

i really pray for my ramadan will bear the fruits of takwa and not just a mere 'lapar and dahaga'

InsyaAllah :)

on other note (duniawi sket :p)
yeaay, September is now here :)

satu. 1)
our 'last original' family trip
(before the addition of another family member at the end of this year)
i hope we can get a good guide for the tour, like ones that we had for Turkey Trip back in 2009

dua. 2)
the new beetle, i cant waittttttt :)
in red or white?
ke nak Coop jer?

till then,

xoxo,zurabes

Real

2011-08-13T08:19:00.001+08:00

real

first love

people says that to love someone is to withstand pain

that love co-exist with pain

i used to believe that,

looking back at my previous experiences with love

it hurts, every time.

here's a confession

"saya tidak pernah lagi cinta manusia untuk redha DIA, Yang Maha Esa"

no wonder it failed, every time.

no wonder it hurts, every time.

that is because i've not loved for HIM

i've not loved anyone for HIS blessing

i guess i've not had a real first love then.

i hope its not, too little too late..

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Like

2011-07-24T19:21:00.001+08:00

like this

stumbled across a youtube channel, with few 'kuliah' on the above book

found it to be very interesting

i'm preparing myself for greatness

insyaAllah :)

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Colors

2011-07-17T16:48:00.001+08:00

colors

colors me likeeee!

its the first piece of furniture from my home that do not come from IKEA, hurrraaah!

i hope this will be a good addition to the pieces at home

still a long way to go

i though of getting this too...

and this one too

memang sah, my taste is soo not minimalist..

jangan sampai rumah jadi macam tadika sudah :p

till then,

xoxo,zurabes

T-3

2011-07-10T00:48:00.002+08:00

t-3

owh saya tidak sabar!

T-3 days for a special package to arrive from Champs-Elysee

the last time i went to Paris, I was so broke that I could not get the 'staple' there

i know its a crime, not coming back with anything LV

back then i was all about the experiencing the city and trust me, my pocket money barely survive small scale shopping :p

but things about to change

i bet it will be a start of something wonderful.

thanks to you for making it happen!

i hope you're not arrested by the custom's for the amount of things you bought

godspeed shopping angel!

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

One More

2011-07-08T22:40:00.001+08:00

one more

yeay, its really happening!

Vienna-Berlin-Prague-Krakow

European-trip babeh :)

Check off another thing in my list for this year!

I guess the law of attraction is really in action.

Alhamdulillah, it wont be long till all of the things in that list of mine will be checked off.

I seriously have to be prepared though as it will be a busy year,

I will definitely put my 20 days of cuti next year in good use.

Pray for the correct path, and then have the strength to follow through.

InsyaAllah :)

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Mad

2011-07-05T23:31:00.003+08:00

mad

about bookcases or whatever :p

i kill for this bookcase (bigger version of it)

or this

owh, uber cool as it can also be used to divide spaces..

do you have any ideas where to find these cool bookcases/shelving unit or whatever you call it?
seriously, whoever can give me info that could lead me to finding any of the above,
will be handsomely rewarded :)

darn it, now i do sound like a missing child ad. LOL!

owh please, please la somewhere near, as i dont want to be importing a large book case all the way to malaysia, unless if its free of course!!

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Confirmed

2011-07-03T17:29:00.000+08:00

confirmed

good things come to those who wait :)

so i will wait for another year :)

for my new baby

its like a pattern you know, the last time when i got my baby,

it was the first car that got out of the show room

so it will be the same for my new beetle

tolong vw, jangan delay the launching ok.

saya tunggu ni :)

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Lambat??

2011-07-02T00:14:00.008+08:00

lambat??

or is it a blessing in disguise?

contacted the vw dealer for my bumblebee, but then he then said
"sorry, the new bettle that you're referring to is old news news. vw has launch a new beetle model"
he then referred me to the official vw blog for new beetle.
and here's the look of the new beetle
first time looking at it, i thought it did look like a porch
lebih classy la.. but then its not the look i'm looking for

i want a cute looking car...

darn it..

i do hope he can find me one unregistered bumblebee..

yeah i know, the new model is an improved version, but then i've fall in love with bumblebee since secondary school kot.

or else i would have to wait till next year for my futuristic baby to arrive

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Hasil

2011-06-25T23:19:00.000+08:00

hasil

the 'skeleton' in our closet

found this picture of me and my brother, aiman,

while having a mini spring cleaning of his stuff

i've always love this picture of us

if i'm not mistaken this picture was taken the night before my first day at kindergarten

with our new pj's and of course my pink school bag!

back then, it's kind of a ritual to take picture of 'barang baru' for mementos

as it is hard to come by, us having new stuff for ourselves

but then, even though we did not live in the lap of luxury, but i have to say,

i've had an awesome time growing up

thanks to you, mama and ayah :)

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Syukur

2011-06-23T00:29:00.000+08:00

syukur

its that time of the year :p

syukur, i'm grateful to Allah :)

my mom always reminded us to not only remember him in times of difficulties,

even more when we're blessed

tapi, paling penting, i do hope its rezeki yang berkat
tak guna kalau ada duit segunung tetapi tidak berkat

insyaAllah

till then,

xoxo,zurabes

Wordless Wednesday - Red or Yellow?

2011-06-22T23:33:00.002+08:00

wordless Wednesday - red or yellow?

Wordless Wednesday - Bali

2011-06-15T22:42:00.001+08:00

wordless wednesday - bali

PV > FV

2011-06-13T08:16:00.003+08:00

pv > fv

turning knowledge to action

i know, i know

we should make good use of our knowledge

but then i couldn't help it, to apply what my lecturer told me when i was in uni

applying the rule Present Value of Money is greater than Future Value of Money

here's another one of the 'damages'

my logic was saying, "zura, dont act like money grows on tree"

but my heart says, "i want to go to bali :p"

so bali, here i come

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Girl + Shop = Mayhem

2011-06-11T17:07:00.000+08:00

Girl + Shop = Mayhem

shopaholic abroad

yeayyyy, i'm backkkk!

the highlights of the entire 5 days, 4 nights?

back with a lot of 'damages' to my pocket :p

well, as my shopping guru said, money spend abroad shall not be counted as expenditure

Before :p
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went to hong kong with a 9 kg bag

(mind you, it is full with food since i'm paranoid lapar di negara orang)

duit..duit (some of it, yang lain sorok nanti kene rompak ok :p)
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After.. aftermath :p
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end up, at the end of the trip with 15kg :p

duit bertukar menjadi barang .. muaahhahahahaha

mind you, the above are only damages recorded on day one of shopping madness.
end result, multiply it by 4 :p

i'm glad that i managed to jalan-jalan with the gurls (diha (unofficial tour guide :p) , sha

dapat kenal kawan baru juga, amy, fana and kak yani

kenalan baru itu = PRICELESS
yang lain Visa uruskan :)

satu jer yang saya sesalkan..
mengapa i didn't get to bring back this..

next trip? Bali Here I Come :)

till then,

xoxo,zurabes

Wordless Wednesday - Home

2011-06-08T13:48:00.000+08:00

wordless wednesday - home

Thanks

2011-06-07T13:52:00.000+08:00

thanks

to you

"We must also realize that nothing happens without a purpose. Nothing. Not even broken hearts. Not even pain. That broken heart and that pain are lessons and signs for us. They are warnings that something is wrong. They are warnings that we need to make a change. Just like the pain of being burned is what warns us to remove our hand from the fire, emotional pain warns us that we need to make an internal change. That we need to detach. Pain is a form of forced detachment. Like the loved one who hurts you again and again and again, the more dunya hurts us, the more we inevitably detach from it. The more we inevitably stop loving it.

And pain is a pointer to our attachments. That which makes us cry, that which causes us most pain is where our false attachments lie. And it is those things which we are attached to as we should only be attached to Allah which become barriers on our path to God. But the pain itself is what makes the false attachment evident. The pain creates a condition in our life that we seek to change, and if there is anything about our condition that we don’t like, there is a divine formula to change it. God says: “Verily never will God change the condition of a people until they change what is within themselves.” (Qur’an, 13:11)"

Found the above article on FB, (actually it was posted by my friend) at his wall

it really had opened my eyes, made me realize of things that had happen to me is the result of my own wrongdoings.

My mom said, 'tak rugi langsung kamu, kakak'. HE has removed things that are bad for you, making room for better things :)

Alhamdulillah.

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Fate

2011-06-01T19:44:00.000+08:00

fate

percaya qada dan qadar

manusia merancang,
tp ultimatum nyer, Allah yang menentukan

things that had happen, mendidik sabar

i was raised to become a strong person
accept consequences of my actions
and yes, not cowardly like some people are, as expected.

i guess i can read you like a book after all.

till then,

xoxo,zurabes

Side

2011-05-31T16:30:00.001+08:00

side

which side are you on

i guess its now out in the open

i guess, the minute i touched down at kuala lumpur, i'll be on house arrest.

haha, seen this coming
so i'm prepared, fully prepared

are you?

till then,

xoxo,zurabes

HK

2011-05-28T09:03:00.000+08:00

sudah sampai

yeay :)

we're here. finally

mari explore hong kong island today

i hope it didn't do that much damage to my wallet

till then,

xoxo,zurabes

Off We Go

2011-05-25T21:38:00.000+08:00

Off We Go

in 24 hours we will be

off to a new country :p
the fact that i dont bother to pack my stuff says it all
'shops, here i come'

guess what, our first stop is the shopping mall :p
geee, its great to be able to jalan2 with my girlfriends
its been awhile since our last trip (back then in Bandung and Jakarta)
maaf sebab saya selalu 'hilang' the past two years.

esok i do need to confirm my tix pergi Bali pula.
as i said earlier,
a LOT is in my plate this month
sampai my mom bising,
'nama jer pindah, weekend asyik hilang jer'
i replied, biasa la mama, darah muda

My friend Spas was obviously jealous with my calender
penuh sangat katanya
hahahahaha

yes, i'm a busy girl :p

till then,

xoxo,zurabes

Miracle

2011-05-24T22:06:00.000+08:00

miracle

saya yang optimistic!

he was hoping for a miracle

its scary to be at a hospital, as it reminds us of the reality of life

but i said, it will be super cool if the doctors decided to modify his hand, add in blades = wolverine :p

on the other note,

a good friend of mine said

its easy to fall in love, but it takes hard work and a LOT of sacrifices to stay in love

corny sungguh

but then, i am looking for corny ok!

so moral of the story,

usaha tangga kejayaan :p

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Goal

2011-05-16T18:01:00.000+08:00

goal

saya sudah lost balikkk....

i'm a very good in catching up with deadlines
clear goals gives me sense of direction,
keep me focused.

but then,
since d-day, everything seems to be lost.
again, memang pusing aku akibat 'the recent development'
rasa macam dah back to square one...

i do need to come up with my goals asap!
living without clear end in mind is a total waste of time
your effort can't be focused,
and everything, i mean everything will go to waste
time, energy

i guess my '7 habit's' planner will be of good use now
saya perlu focus!

mari fikir, list down semua benda yang important and need attention :)
i dont care if its lame, like you said
this is just how i operate!
so deal with it!

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Big

2011-05-04T22:12:00.000+08:00

big

Girl I Am

hihi, today i broke the record of my shopping escapade

all time record expenditure, the cashier was puzzled with the amount of things i passed to him
he thought that its too much to handle for a girl.
sexist ok! (rasa nak punch him in the face, tp again my policy 'xguna gaduh dengan orang x sekolah') managed to keep me cool.
at the end of the day, i do feel soo independent sekali, as i'm able to fork out the monies by myself

Alhamdulillah :)

As planned, i've bought myself new fluffy bed
after this, it will indeed be a challenge for me to get out of bed, sebab memang sungguh comfy :)
wardrobe to house my stuffs (bags and baju you will have a splendid home)
also bought things for the living hall, and the other bedroom for my housemate.

bestfren kata, bahaya, jangan terlalu independent.
nanti lelaki takut dengan awak
saya jawap selamba, "rumah masih kosong, a lot more to be bought!"

nanti saya buat housewarming party ok?
registry akan ditinggal at few places,
check it out :p

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Hitam Putih

2011-04-22T16:40:00.002+08:00

hitam putih

warna kehidupan

Selalu perlu ingatkan diri bahawa hidup di dunia ini sementara

Dia Maha Kaya, dicipta dunia sebagai dugaan untuk manusia

Supaya hanya the worthy few jejak syurgaNya

Kamu kata, tak guna jadi orang baik, sama sahaja terseksa

Itu kata orang putus asa

Kalau tuhan uji kita, itu tanda Dia sayang kita.

Kamu dark lord? Please, langsung saya tak takut. Saya percaya kuasa Dia yang maha Esa.

I guess, kamu memang dugaan saya

Ya Allah, tunjuk aku jalan yang benar dan beri kekuatan untuk aku ikutinya

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Stop

2011-04-15T00:25:00.001+08:00

stop

serious. its not funny at all

Xpernah nak berhenti pun, kata kamu.

Memang senang untuk bercakap

Tapi kita tahu realitinya

Action speaks louder than words

Oh Tuhan tunjuk aku jalan yang benar

till then,

xoxo,zurabes

Sesat?

2011-04-10T20:00:00.001+08:00

sesat?

Mari Cari Jalan Pulang Sayang

The other day i've received a request that made me cry

tears, tears of joy, streaming down my face.

your request to me reminded me that all hope are not lost.

Alhamdulillah.

Kamu, on the other hand

Dont stray away too long

Nanti kamu tidak jumpa jalan pulang

Pain serves as a reminder to you and me that we do live on borrowed time

For things that need changes so that it will be better.

i pray for the day that you'll see that, and decide its time for a change

and most importantly, that is not too little too late.

but then again,

we cant carry the weight of the world on our shoulder.

the trick is, we do have to remind ourself to place our hopes, to HIM only.

HIM ONLY

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Tickle Me Fancy

2011-04-03T23:02:00.008+08:00

Tickle Me Fancy

gulp.gulp.gulp

i should be saving monies right?

my home is still in not-livable condition

a lot need to be put up
i should not be wasting it all on you.

yeah you..

maxi zip satchel in old pink by anya
you're seriously teasing my bank account

ok. focus zura.

focus.

but then,
i should treat myself right?

and i really need some color to my bag collection

arghh..
fail betul...

till then,

xoxo,zurabes

Lost

2011-03-26T11:40:00.002+08:00

lost

have i lost my freakin' marbles?

have it told you my plans of getting a mustard-colored curtain for my living hall?

why the sudden obsession with bright colored everything?

the last three items that i've bought in the past one month are in orange, yellow, bright maroon-pink

a pair of orange sneakers (sejak bila pandai pakai sneakers pun x tahu)

a yellow beach top (berangan to wear it to bali over a nice swim-piece that my mom is soo going to kill me if she know i'm buying let alone wearing it)

and not to forget, my bright maroon-pinkish sweater ala-ala sue slyvester

clearly, i'm losing my mind

back then, my color palette is always grey, grey, black and brown

and now its a total 360!

but then, come to think of it

that mustard-colored curtain will bring a good contrast (i hope) to my deep-blue sofa and white leather footstool.

maybe i'm not crazy after all.

till then,

xoxo,zurabes

Right

2011-03-22T18:12:00.000+08:00

right

mama knows best

i guess i'll take my mother's advice after all

the only way to move forward

is to change how you see the person

you've now been put in the pile marked 'never ever going to happen'

yeah, as you said

its all in the mind right?

i've made up my mind

i will never second guessed myself on this matter ever again

please dear God, no more surprises ok?
help me to stay on my course

till then,

xoxo,zurabes

Fat

2011-03-21T00:03:00.003+08:00

fat

i want you back!

its hard to hide things

from a person who knows you too well

i need to 'shed off few layers of my skin'

to at least cover up, and let not the person see straight to me

hoho, now it make sense

no wonder lah i've been losing so much weight

its kind of an automatic reaction towards rebuilding my new self

did i answer your question?

yes, i didn't do it on purpose

you and i know that i am a person who can't resist chocolate bars whenever i see them

and yes, i have a trunk load of chocolates at my room, my cubicle at the office and other places!

owh, i want my butt back.

among other things.

hahahaha. making it official

00 is seriously an unsexy figure

and i kinda agree with you, i do look like 'budak sekolah' now

i'm cutting off my sugar intake nowadays.
doctor's order!
yer, saya akan makan lebih byk good carbs and protein

till then,

xoxo,zurabes

Cherios

2011-03-20T19:33:00.001+08:00

cherios

go team!

i guess some people do have problem with our team spirit

even when we win or loose

we acted like we've won the whole thing

(haha, with how we're doing now, its kinda almost impossible)

they find it insulting i guess

as we're always smiling and jumping with joy

unlike some people

we dont need a win to feel good

win is a bonus

so no matter how the match turn out to be,

we'll always feel good about ourselves

and no amount of trophies

could buy you that

indeed i succeeded as a role of the cheer captain :)

so, to whom should i pass the spirit baton?

till then,

xoxo,zurabes

Burns and Bruises

2011-03-18T19:41:00.000+08:00

Burns and Bruises

its part of the game

Main, main jugak

Tapi jangan sampai injure yourself ok

Words of caution from a concern friend

Yes, i'm sorry i scrapped my knee

He said, "there goes another 1000 of your off your dais, you lucky guy (whoever that is)"

Then i replied, "there parts of me that are still awesome :p"

Silenced.

Then he said, "Malas nak layan budak degil"

I'm sorry man! Itu ayat kickass CA :)

I guess my two years training paid off

i'm numbed, and gee, i feel great :p

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Class Act

2011-03-16T00:17:00.001+08:00

class act

some people just don't have it, no matter how hard they tried

seriously, some people just get carried away when they're under pressure

swearing and making a fool of themselves

if i were you i will just keep quiet

as it is definitely ain't a pretty sight and yes, not classy at all

pity you that your vocabulary only revolves around 'foul languages' section

you can use all the foul languages you can, i will only respond with a smirk on my face.

this is due to the following reasons

1) you redefine a new level of swearing, and usage of foul languages. i've never seen a person who has a wide vocabulary for cursing and swearing as you do. plus, i guess you're also holding a ground breaking record of 10 foul words per second. So since you're swearing expert, i seriously dont understand anything that you're saying.

2) i know it will drive you nuts! haha, perang psycho sket kan!

and i guess level of education and background does play a part

i don't blame you for behaving in that manner

it kinda expected of you, to be like that

kasihan, kasihan, aduh kasihan

nak saya belanja kamu?

Oxford Dictionary, Student Edition perhaps?

ke nak Kamus Dewan?

maybe then you'll have an extensive non-foul language to be used.

till then,

xoxo,zurabes

Sakit

2011-03-12T17:30:00.000+08:00

sakit

ooouccchhhhhh!

ohmigosh!

baru main futsal sekali rasa macam badan dah pecah berkecai

i guess saya perlu ke spa this weekend :p

on other note,
i woke up this morning with one thing in my mind,

going to Bali,

haha, random bukan?

relaxing at a nice hotel, spa treatment, buying pretty artwork for my house and maybe bungee?

cadangan terakhir agak 360!

haha, ini akan membuatkan pocket saya sakit juga :p
haha, what the fudge kan, duit bukan boleh bawa mati

I dont wait for things to happen, i will try my best to make it happen :)

fireworks baby, fireworks :p

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Optimist

2011-03-10T07:59:00.000+08:00

optimist

i am

yes, i do always believe that no matter how bad things are,

there will come a day where things will work out, be better

everybody is indeed a good person,

they just don't know it yet or just had simply forgot about what's like being good

i know in times like this, when everything seems to not work,

but i believe there's will be rays of rainbow and sunshine after a thunderstorm

hahahaha, tiba-tiba rasa like i'm delusional
thank god i have friends that reminded me that
i am not delusional, i am simply an optimist

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Bosan

2011-03-09T04:57:00.000+08:00

bosan

but then, i can't really complaint

a lot in my plate for the next coming months
trip to hong kong with the girls
pre-broadway 'trip' with hamster :p
and not to forget much awaited family trip to the states.

i wish my work is as exciting as my social calender
i'm drowning with boredom doing petty things at office
reporting, reporting, finalizing FA, filing
ugh...

but then, as i will be transferring soon,
i guess its time to pass the baton

till then,

xoxo,zurabes

Happy Birthday

2011-03-07T00:09:00.002+08:00

happy birthday

you're a year wiser

happy birthday emansbooyyy!!

maybe the last single birthday kot (hint, hint)

if yes,you're soo getting me a new lv as promised :p

semoga panjang umur, dimurahkan rezeki

kamu banyak responsibilities

kerja rajin-rajin okay?

p/s: kalau dapat special cake delivery, i want a rerun too when i'm home in 2 weeks time

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Divine

2011-03-06T10:58:00.002+08:00

divine

my owh my

checked one place off my list.

i guess my mini exercise routine paid off,

i successfully went through the ordeal of 9km walk without fainting :)
and i was not the last one who arrived at the finish line. owh, sungguh bangga :p

yes, i guess i underestimated my own strength

dimana ada kemahuan, disitu ada jalan

hihi, this definitely prepares me for my last sko games.
haha, let us won some trophies

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Behold

2011-03-06T00:03:00.000+08:00

behold

the truth

i am a very straight forward person

i dont like to be taken for a ride

i like truth straight up, no holds barred

i dont care if it hurts me,

as i value the truth more than anything

so, shoot up

p/s: there's no use of a window, if you're still chained to the wall

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Tipu

2011-03-01T23:41:00.000+08:00

tipu

who are you kidding?

Adakah orang lahir ke muka bumi ni terus jahat?

Dont insult your parents by saying that

Your mom carried you for nine grueling months,

and now you say that i'm just returning to the person i am.

Itu kata orang bodoh and ungrateful

Yes, i'm not not all sugar spice and everything nice

Rasa nak tarik telinga, pastu laga kepala kamu ke dinding

Things meant to happen, itu qada and qadar Allah

But what we do with it is up to us

So choose your actions carefully

Ada akal kan, so fikir sebaiknya

You've thought me to be an adult, so now walk the talk my friend

Please stop kidding around, be the man i know you are

And yes, doing things you do now, nothing good will come out of it. you're just fooling yourself.

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Vote

2011-02-27T01:18:00.000+08:00

vote

get the ballot boxes out now!

going around telling people, the inflated version of the story

its like throwing salt to your own injury.

for what? sympathy votes?

berbaloi ke?

you might be successful in tarnishing the intended person's repo.

while doing so, later will force you to dish out things that might hurt your own repo too

i get it, for that one moment of satisfaction

But then, what more?

Mengadu pada manusia, paling2 orang akan cakap 'kasihan'

Mengadulah dengan yang Maha Esa. Dia Maha Mendengar.

Maha Berkuasa

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Janji

2011-02-18T15:55:00.001+08:00

janji

i do believe

janji Allah,
perempuan yang baik untuk lelaki yang baik

dan lelaki yang baik untuk perempuan yang baik

yes, both of you made a great couple, you do
memang sepadan
like a mirror to each other, kan?

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Best

2011-02-15T08:06:00.000+08:00

best

'shortsighted' i am!

last year, on this day i was very much in love.

i was on the moon,

nothings beats the feeling of being loved

i thought i had it all

so i thought

last december

he took that person away from me,

i was sad, i must say, losing the person we love is not a walk in the park

but i guess, Allah knows better

as today HE showed me that love indeed is around me

he took that one person love away from me, then replacing it with a whole lot more

i've never felt so blessed

alhamdulillah
and yes, HE knows best.

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Sorry

2011-02-10T22:46:00.000+08:00

sorry

the door is closed

and it sealed.

i hope you know what it meant

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Kick Ass

2011-02-08T23:30:00.000+08:00

kick ass

kicking sadness to the door!

hihi, finally!

i'm doing things that i love the most

getting things ready for april the 1st

it will not be wallet friendly, i must warn myself

the list ain't pretty

as the house is rather empty,

have to start from scratch baby!

a fluffy bed

walk in wardrobe

cosy living room

for starters :p

i will start my shopping list soon,

watch out stores in KL, i'll be coming to borong a loooot of gorgeous stuffs

this will definitely kick my post break-up stress to the window
just what i needed, a new project!

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Law of Attraction

2011-02-04T11:28:00.001+08:00

law of attraction

its all in the mind

if we want something bad enough

the universe will help to conspire with us in getting it

and of course we do have to put some effort in getting what we want

god knows, how many times i've voiced out my intention to be stationed closer to home

and alhamdulillah, my prayers have been answered!

see you on the other side, very very soon :)

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

New Kid on the Block

2011-01-22T18:54:00.000+08:00

new kid on the block

yippeeeeee!

a new chef in town?

yeay! i now have my own personal ~~kitchen slave~~ chef

haha, now way, said my mom

she'll be the one bossing us around!

darn it!

i really envy my sister for pursuing her interest

at least she knows what that she want.

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Melting Hearts?

2011-01-20T23:12:00.000+08:00

melting hearts?

tak kot!

ok, let me start with something closer to home

we always have dinner here, since its like a stone throw away from my home.

yes, 'melting pot' @ concorde shah alam.

for starters, you can opt for either buffet or ala-carte
buffet will cost you around RM90 per pax.
its a nice selection of buffet, and i must say, the ala carte selection is rahter limited.

but then, we decided to go ala carte
we've ordered Salmon and Lamb Rack .

Both my mom and me did choose the same dish - Wok Seared Soy Salmon Fillet.
The salmon was cooked to perfection. I'm not a huge fan of its rather sweet cinamon with orange reduction sauce though.
Rating; 3/5

Both of my sisters and my brother chose Lamb Rack
honestly, it was a so-so dish. the meat was rather a bit dried and we were kinda puzzled with the existance of the spring roll as the side dish.
Rating : 2/5

agak fail, my first food review.
cuba lagi, next time!

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Balance

2011-01-17T23:16:00.000+08:00

balance

its time for sugar, spice and everything nice :p

ok, all my previous post for month of Jan are serious, rather depressing :p
definitely deserved a break right?

i still owe myself, my blog,

countless food reviews

unpublished travel stories (places i went, with many many stories to be told)

and most importantly, true account for my life

sometimes we only focus on the negative, we tend to forget those happier times

and plus,
i do need to polish my 'review' skills :p

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Tale of Two Dates

2011-01-16T22:06:00.000+08:00

tale of two dates

is it destiny, or plain coincidence?

today, as i recalled, six years back, something happened,

and it did alter the course of live of two person, forever.

today, again, on the same date, 8760 hours ago, the same thing, again happen

call it coincidence, call it fate

one thing for sure, i'll be more careful for the next coming years.

i dont want to take any chances

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Coward

2011-01-16T14:21:00.005+08:00

coward

the cowardly dog

my parents always taught me to speak of only the truth

be kind to people, even when they're not kind to you,

and most importantly, to be brave,

but i guess this values might not been taught in all homes, or at least not the home you grow up in.

i guess you're so desperate that you act like you do

some people will do anything for money right?

fyi, even my anya cost more than that. so why dont you just steal that, as its kinda your forte right?

cheap, stupid threats. its it worth your time, and the trouble?

or i forgot, cheap people make cheap demands

so hear me out, i'm not scared of your threats

do what you want, i dont care anymore.

and in case you didn't know,

only cowards do blackmail.

as i said, some people just dont have guts, no matter how they tried.

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Cuti

2011-01-15T08:34:00.001+08:00

cuti

sweet, sweet weekend

relaxing at the pool, reading books, sipping lemonade. ohhh, bliss!

and i'm too lazy to update on my weekend escapade to Singapore
:p

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Penat

2011-01-11T23:11:00.002+08:00

penat

selfish.period.

penat dah fikirkan hal orang,especially trivial stuff,

there are far more pressing and urgent matters that needs my urgent attention.

so, i guess you just have to look the other way lah yer, for now at least.

do yourself favor by doing so, at least till I figure out ways to remove it, savvy?

tak pun, sila hack jer la site tu. I dont mind at all, as you'll be doing me a favor too!

satu jer, i wonder why on earth do you have to hurt yourself, time and time again by looking at it, over and over again? it doesn't make sense at all.

pelik, pelik tapi benar bukan?

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

What If's

2011-01-11T09:00:00.000+08:00

possibilities

what if's

we're always ponder upon this question.

what if i were to do things differently? what if i decided to take the different path?

what if i were to do this, what if i were to do that...

what if, what if'sss

we usually tempt ourselves of the unknown,

personally, i do think that it is due to the fact that we really don't want to face the real issues,

what in front of us, that we decided to look elsewhere

because by focusing on the unknown, as it is easier, simpler.

the possibilities are endless, unlike things that are happening right in front of our eyes

in short, we're bunch of cowards, too scared to face the real deal

so let's not ponder to the possibilities
live truthfully
we have to believe that
God did not plan things to be in vain
as all things have reasons

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Move On

2011-01-08T18:50:00.001+08:00

move on

will you?

As much as our action is sometimes driven by emotions, it is a human thing to do. But we shall never be too driven by it. We must always have it checked againts other variables: Logic, Social Norm, Faith.

have a knack of knowing what's important. life's too short, we only got one shot to make it right.
anger, hatred, will get you nowhere, just self-destruction.

As the malay saying, "ikut hati mati, ikut rasa binasa".

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Read

2011-01-06T00:40:00.002+08:00

read

a bookworm i am ;p

i do believe that we human are chosen as Khalifah, as we were able to use our head and think.

this what separate us from other beings.

i've always taken refuge in books to keep me sane as i believe that knowledge will improve how we think , react and therefore enhance our capability as human being.

i'm not saying that a well read person will react better to situation when it is presented to him or her,
but its better to be at least equipped with something right?
dont get me wrong though, you dont have to always refer to books and stuffs for knowledge.
we can always learn from other people, places we went, own life's experience and experience of other people (but you see, those things are rather costly ;p) b

so folks, do take up reading. Make it a habit. It will do u wonders, trust me.

My Current Reads :

Nelson Mandela - Long Walk to Freedom
Commitment - Elizabeth Gillbert
Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Key

2011-01-05T16:46:00.001+08:00

key

sometimes silence is the key

"If you cannot think of anything appropriate to say you please restrict your remarks to the weather"

Jane Austen - Sense and Sensibility

or should i say, in a very simple way

if you have nothing decent to say, silence might just be the way.

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Kuat

2011-01-04T08:16:00.001+08:00

kuat

survival of the fittest

Betrayed and marooned by people I care and trust the most. The past two weeks was traumatizing. Honestly, I barely made it, if not for this notion.

Ingat Mati.

With that in mind, you can never go wrong.

I'm a lucky girl, i must say :) Alhamdulillah, thanks to You for showing me the way.

Don't worry, I'm not turning into a tabligh ke apa.

Im still going to enjoy living and breathing, living my life to the fullest.

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Malu

2011-01-02T07:41:00.001+08:00

malu

mana nak letak muka oiii...

Its an epidemic, lack of ability to use language correctly. Im not saying im good at it (given fact that my blog is a mixture of malaysian english and poor usage of bahasa) but then if its a government site for pete sake, they should be extra careful in publishing and moderating contents at their site. I guess the ministry should reconsider of putting more weightage to language competency as criteria of selection of next moderator.

I wonder who's the moderator of the site? Maybe your boss have to impose new kpi's, lulus kelas bahasa? or maybe you should make it a new year's resolution?

its not the first time i encounter blob's like this

but this is the most embarrassing i must say

Again, kasihan kamu. Tapi lagi kasihan, kami rakyat malaysia yang malu akibat kamu.

Blog Serius - Serius Beb!: Serius Fail - Kementerian Dalam Negeri JEW PHAILED!

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Divine Intervention

2011-01-01T19:05:00.001+08:00

divine intervention

ok, this is scary

i thought i deserve a new mac, for new year

i seriously need a new macbook air for work purposes (;p)

ia ringan, ringan, ringan and sememangnya muat to fit in one of my many handbag
and plus i need 'semangat' baru for new year

and gila stylo kalau present depan committee, semua pakai ipad, i'm using air ;p

hahaha, tetapi...

tiba-tiba, i noticed that my alarm in my iPhone failed to work
(ok, saya ada byk alarm untuk byk bende, i am a busy girl ;p)

i guess, i should wait for a new apple

cepat steve jobs. repair bug itu!

then i will reconsider

i miss tweeting on my bb.
but my bb demam for the past few weeks, i guess i have to get a new one too!

owh, hamster.. save me now.
if not, there goes our broadway trip..

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

It's Time

2010-12-31T22:40:00.001+08:00

it's time

for new beginning

or not?

I guess its not something new, returning to your own fitrah

I was strayed for the past two years, far away from my life goals, from the person i really am

in lies and deceit, but i guess, HE must loved me too much to let me be far from HIM too long

life's too short to be wasted on unjustified cause right?

dunia ni pun sementara jer, susah sekarang, senanglah kemudian

I've learnt a great deal of lesson last year,

some new, some serve as a refresher of things ive known,

but the most important thing

i've learnt that

never loose sight of who you are, where youre heading to

trust your instinct, trust that HE will always be there

I've never felt so eager to start anew

but i have a strong feeling that this year will be a year of redemption

alas, alhamdulillah for the countless blessing that has been given, and insyaAllah, the next coming years will be good ones :)

happy new year, 010111

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Anda Ada 60 Saat?

2010-12-30T22:42:00.001+08:00

ANDA ADA 60 SAAT?

things people do for money

i was halfway through my dinner when i saw 'Anda Ada 60 Saat' airing on Astro Ria

and then i lost my appetite

let me tell you why

this one ~~girl~~ woman was trying her best to perform a 'tadika-sukaneka' thingy for RM2500

and her family was cheering like she's in olympic, trying to break a world record

SPEECHLESS!

is it even worth it , i bet she just spend hundreds or maybe thousand of ringgit to look good (that is what i will do if i were to appear in national tv) and a couple more to usher her family to join and support her during the show. for what? entah2 tak breakeven pun, dapat rm2500, tolak expenses and all, tinggal lah RM500 (ni blom minus lagi, belanja tambang balik + open table kat mamak)

yes, a party poop'er i'm!

i'm not a fan of game shows. especially game shows bodoh2 camtu

e.g - Jangan Lupa Lirik (who on earth have time to hafal lirik lagu siap kene ikut suku kata semua)

i find it insulting Malaysian Public Intelligence

i seriously hate seeing people humiliating themselves in front of national tv, in this case for the sake of rm2500 (okaylah, they said the grand prize is half-a-million-ringgit), but what are the odds?

did i mentioned, that the host, Nabil was wearing a tux. ok. enough said.

rosak brain cells!

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Pity

2010-12-23T14:53:00.002+08:00

pity

is the word of the day

You asked me to curse you, to say nasty things to you in return for all the shit you have put me through, but that's just not my style. Unlike you, i happen to have moral decency, i have class.

If you asked me, I dont hate you as it takes courage to stand up for things, to be truthful and face consequences of your own action, both good or bad. I'm doing it, but sadly not you.

I pity you for being cowardly and do trust me it will get you nowhere.

And to you my friend, know that winning through false pretenses is actually losing.

Any fool can see that. So, congratulations for your win!

I rather live an honest hard life than living a life full of lies. But as i must say, some people just settle for anything. Again, pity you.

Thanks for the 'love' smses. Dont hate me for not entertaining you, for this whole fiasco. I just dont like to waste my time entertaining people who are not my equal.

some people just dont have guts, no matter how hard they try.

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Roadtrip

2010-12-18T20:14:00.001+08:00

roadtrip

its about time, y'all!

mr.Lovesick had one idea, one fine night, that we should all go for a Borneo Adventure.

I guess its about time for me to explore Borneo, its been three years and i've not seen it all.

Get to know the places. He was talking bout going to all the places, i mean ALL! Niah, Mulu, Similajau (ok, where the heck is that?) to name a few!

Haha, but who am i kidding. The last time i check, i don't do adventure trip. Hiking, masuk hutan ni semua. I bet hamster is more fit than i do.

At least i can put my new camera to use. sweet isn't?

so let's plan the plan! next year will be the year of adventure.

sayang kamu semua :)

p/s: i bought the camera myself, among many other things.

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Support

2010-12-18T07:53:00.000+08:00

support

its all a girl needs in time like this

my life has been better

work is hectic as usual, traveling back and forth like nobody's business

personal life is a mess, with a LOT of drama sana sini.

but, life's like that's right?

i'm doing ok, better than i myself even expected

i'm handling this 'shituation' better than anyone i know

but i didn't make it alone.

so here's a tribute to the people, my support :)

yanathemd- kalau tiada kamu, saya memang hampir lemas! thanks to your TLC, i'm getting better now. nanti kita pergi Auckland ok, just the two of us?

mr.lovesickpuppy- hahaha, talking with a person yg tgh sgt lovesick (in a positive way) is FUN!

hamster - owh, kamu sungguh blur,and u dont know how much u have helped me the past few weeks :)

myotherbestfriend- i know you're mad a me for putting myself through this mess. and i know u're mad because u hated seeing me hurt this way. marah itu tanda kasih bukan? owh, balik nanti kita hangout ok? i promise u can ~~punch~~ cubit me in the face.

mr.maher - hahahahaahhahah, track no.3 does help me a lot! your voice has wonders u know ;)

and many many many more people.. i should not list them up as they've signed up to my own witness protection plan :p

and yes, i'm not dead, just broken (for now), savvy?

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

6

2010-12-17T23:17:00.001+08:00

sudah rasa hilang sabar!

six more days to my much needed break

off to city of gold :p

let say hello to

a. pristine beaches

b. beach bikini babes and cute hunky surfer dudes

c. delicious seafood

d. endless shopping trips (hihihihihihiihi)

e. theme park - mari naik roller coaster!

owh, i should start packing my sunblock (plenty with high spf!, straw hat, slippers and ~~bikini '~~burkini'

or should I say G'day Mate!

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Finger Pointing

2010-12-14T19:43:00.001+08:00

finger pointing

its an obsession!

it seems to be everyone's hobby nowadays

its easier to put blame to other people, and not addressing to the real problem

i'm not saying that i'm totally innocent,

but at least, i'm owning to my mistake and accepting the dire consequences

and to you my friend,

do know, it takes TWO to TANGO!

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Nobody, I Mean Nobody

2010-12-05T12:05:00.000+08:00

nobody, i mean nobody

like you

2 more weeks from my christmas holidays

much needed a break,

he called and asked

do u mind if we reroute from our original plan

weather in the swiss is getting worse now

what about new york and dc? and we might go to the Niagara Falls

i replied

i dont care, i just want out

memang betul kata kamu, memang susah untuk lelaki lain menang hati saya

sebab saya ada kamu

thanks daddy

i love you

till then,

p/s: i guess i have to change my summer hols plan with berg n hamster.

rio anyone?

xoxo, zurabes

Eternal Sunshine of A Spotless Mind

2010-12-04T08:41:00.000+08:00

eternal sunshine of a spotless mind

selective amnesia anyone?

a friend once asked me, if you have the ability to erase a memory

a person in your life,

Who will that be?

will it be the one person you hated the most? a lost love perhaps?

with confidence, i then told him. no, i guess no one.

i would like to keep all my memories,

both, good and the bad ones

i'm a firm believe of 'things happen for a reason'

a cherished childhood memories, a heartbreak

happened for a reason

so here i am, learning from every victories and losses
every single one of them

current reads: Long Walk to Freedom : The Autobiography of Nelson Mandela

eat.pray.love - ohmigosh, i'm still stuck in India!

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Ego

2010-11-20T19:46:00.000+08:00

ego

head in the sand

we all have our egos

people say, egos make the world go round

ego will also makes people loose sight of the important

and i've seen it happen

many, many, many times

i will not let it happen to me

i hope

maybe that's my ego

senangkan hati semua orang tapi

korbankan diri sendiri

selamat hari raya aidil adha

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

18

2010-11-19T09:19:00.000+08:00

seeing is believing?

how can you tell if a person is good, "boleh membawa kamu ke jalan yang lurus" after only one time seeing them?

aku jawap jer, "lurus ke mana? heaven, or hell"

selamba

serious memang tak faham langsung

i know they're worried of my sorry ass.

worried that I will end up alone.

don't get me wrong

i'm not trying to be a stuck up, jadi budak degil

i'm open for suggestion.

tapi,

its me, the one who will bear the consequences if anything goes wrong

bukan ada reverse button function pun hidup ni.

so, let me make my own decision.

give me time to make my own decision.

tiada paksaan dalam percintaan.

period.

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

26

2010-11-17T08:52:00.000+08:00

and it will always goes up, right?

so, mengapa lah kita perlu risau bukan?
but then,
why do i have a feeling that this year of the 26th will be a long, long year
till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Commitment

2010-11-07T08:04:00.002+08:00

commitment

boleh ke?

one of my friend asked me, in our session "hati ke hati"
i was busy updating her with my plan to furnish my house in kl,
nak beli itu, nak beli ini
owh, sungguh seronok! (haha, imagine me, happily, muka excited)
then she shoot me with this one look and said, "tunggu la, lagi best kot kalau shopping nanti with husband"
terkesima sekejap, rasa macam kene tampar and flying kick kat muka

dont get me wrong, i'm not turning into those feminist that might become a lesbo (god forbid)
i still want to get married, have kids,
saya memang teringin nak jadi isteri solehah, jalan pintas masuk syurga (Amin!)
but,
do i really have to wait for a man?
to build me my own house
to live the dream

do i?
i think being independent is sexy
and its sexier if a man who can accept the fact that independent women is sexy

so marilah jadi sexy ;p
ada bran?
p/s: i'm not in my eat, pray, love journey.

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Window

2010-11-06T22:05:00.001+08:00

WINDOW

korang ingat EPL jer ada transfer window?

and i guess its closed, for now...

the other day, i was having a "boss please transfer me to KL" conversation
i'm tired of being away from my family
i'm tired of going back and forth to like Miri is at the back of my house
i want to have new adventure!

make me mad, make me hate you
then i'll transfer you to KL.

jadi sekarang macam mana?
ada bran Zura?

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Satu, Dua, Tiga and Empat (Mana Kamu Pergi)

2010-11-06T08:37:00.000+08:00

satu, dua, tiga and empaT (MANA KAMU PERGI)

randomness dah hilang

update punya update, i've erased my previous satu, dua, tiga and empat
it's a very important post
jadi now, i would like to rewrite balik

1. it was one week before i got my baby wristlet
2. 2 more weeks (back then) before i turn 26 (ohmigoshhhh)
3. 3 of my closest friend had tied the knot. while i'm shy away for anything with resemblance of being commited as i was out of yet again of another relationship!
4. more months before i'm officially transferred to KL! (harapan!)
saya ~~mahu~~ sudah lari ke pantai and its liberating!

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Ugh...

2010-08-31T16:24:00.001+08:00

ugh..

saya bukan kaki kipas boss

my big boss asked me to 'guide' the fresh meats at my office about manners
apakah?

i always see myself as a person who is true to herself
i have my own view of the world and if i were to be wrong, mulut aku ni laju jer nak melawan
but then, i guess, i might have learn to say the right things just at the right time
since my voiced is heard, and i did not cross my boss pun

apparently, he saw me as one yang 'civilized' at the office
hoho, i thought people do hate how i used always run in the office with my 3 inch stilettos
how i ~~used to~~ scream at my fellow engineers when they 'visit'ed me at my ws
that is considered as good mannered yer boss?

all in all, the big thanks goes to my mentor bcoz awak byk turun ilmu to me that i've been labelled as 'matured' by my boss

geng bas sekolah, lepas ni saya akan ajar awak2 semua trick2 communication

and please, please.. SAYA BUKAN KAKI KIPAS BOSS!

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Perfect?

2010-08-18T18:04:00.000+08:00

perfect?

i guess not..

yes, maybe its not perfect after all.
but come to think of it, I'm relieved that it's not perfect, so now its easier to believe that its real.
i do admit it, all this while it i had a hard time in believing,
because its too perfect.

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

No

2010-07-20T00:13:00.000+08:00

means no.

"no, you shouldn't worry"
hope this one 'no' will stay as it is, forever

he then continued, smiled sheepishly (suka ejek time tgh nak mood serious kan!)

"do you have any other serious question you want to ask me? or you plan to text me from your bb? "

tidak mengapa, nak buat macam mana
kita dua mmg berbeza!

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Paradise

2010-07-10T02:09:00.000+08:00

paradise

somesay it's paradise :p

i'll leave it for you to decide

till then,

xoxo, zurabes :p

Open

2010-06-23T17:39:00.000+08:00

open

yeah, totally!

totally did made a statement,
hoho, i guess now its out in the open

i'm well over the moon..

till then,

xoxo, zurabes :)

Home Sweet(?) Home

2010-06-06T14:16:00.000+08:00

home sweet(?) home

is it sweet or what?

OMG! I'll be flying back to my Miri in few hours time
haven't pack anything yet
it may take a while, (even with my secret weapon, adik as helper), looking at my stuff from one week of meditating shopping at malls across city centre :p

they said, the shopaholic zura had made her comeback! omg! its not pretty, but what the fish, its my freaking money after all!

a week off from the office is like haven on earth! but then, too much of a good thing pun x elok kan so, i'm really looking forward for a day at the office tomorrow!

5 more hours to home, and yes, i do miss u, A LOT!

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

First Love

2010-06-04T18:22:00.001+08:00

first love

back at square one

our love affair has go on as long as i can remember

i've always loved you

even when we're apart

no one can ever replace you, ever in my heart :)

we had shared and build rainbow of memories together

let's create new memories together..

tehee, there it is, my FIRST love:p

p/s : i always know that i will go back to you, my first love

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Have I Forgotten?

2010-06-01T13:53:00.001+08:00

have i forgotten?

short term memory lost?

have i forgotten who i was since i'm with you?

suddenly when i'm with you, it's like i've been hit with amnesia

-Proof 1-

i always hated bau asap rokok, but then

when one of my girlfriend was having her cig break, i suddenly felt that i can finally breath. owh, am i now addicted to the second-hand smoking. demns!

even asap malboro lights pun remind me of you, owh pure torture.

-Proof 2-

i always blog

and now i've left this blog bersawang like forever that i even lupa the freaking password (try byk kali sampai lockout, then have to create new password, dushhhh!!!)

owh, i'm sooo mad at myself

its like i've totally lost control of my own self

i dont want to end up being someone else,

yes, i'm not saying that it's all negative, there's also the positive sides.

happier, healthier (he takes a good cares of me, aside from smoking tu lah)

yes, people change, but let set up few boundries.

tidak mengapa, this entry shows that i'm taking control back of my life

siaplah awak, we'll going to have that loooooong talk the next time i see you

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Excessive Tweeting

2010-05-29T19:28:00.001+08:00

excessive tweetin

yes, you're to be blamed

hihi.

i guess, it's harder to blog when tweeter is around
it's much more easier, compact, less complicated

but then, siapa jer yang read my blog kan.
i dont really think i'm missed pun

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Long Gone

2010-05-01T13:24:00.003+08:00

long gone

it's been awhile...

yup. i know. i have abandoned my blog.
most of the happenings for the past few months are strictly for my eyes only

with two of my closest aides not around,
kak su, rizal ( i miss ur company, m shoulder to cry on)
loneliness come creeping at the door, relentlessly
life's not that sugar spice and everything nice at all.

alas, i will enjoy your company while it last.
and i'll commemorate it with my G11
so, i'll be ur paparazzi for the next weeks to come.

just bear with me, dier

xoxo, zurabes

What I Like About Me

2010-02-15T07:11:00.001+08:00

what i like about me

erk?

dah 25 tahun baru nak kenal diri sendiri

i rarely (never say never, dangerous) bent myself (my major believes, values) in order to fit in

kirenyer my stubborn ni adalah jugak faedah nyer

evidence(s)

when dier handed me a v-day card (its very cute, he did surprised me, BIG TIME)

he did buat muka comel, and asked me, "where's my card, dear?"

secara selamba nyer, i then said

sorry sayang, i dont do v-day!

its been a year and a half since i did queued for MCD, until recently!

tp bukan peer pressure, saja2 gatal nak makan

so mmg la, the lines that i've drawn, the rules that i have for myself are sometimes kelakar

but the fact that i sticked to my guns, i do feel good of myself :)

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Overload

2010-02-13T13:54:00.001+08:00

overload

information overload

knowing too much will hurt you?

i guess, i get the taste of my own medicine.
i'm a kind a girl who is very inquisitive, i ask a LOT of question
in my past 20++ years or living i had no problem in getting the answers, as all the answers are bearable, let alone, too honest and SAFE

but then, now i guess, i've meet my match
you're the first person, who dares to be honest
even when its not going to pleasant
or even hurt me, or even you

i admit it, i was a little bit thrown away with your honesty
no one had ever been that honest to be before
but i guess, there's always the first time for everything

now, i got a lot of thinking to do
that all the blanks are now filled,
now, its what you call 'informative decision making'

so what's going to be
follow your heart, or your head?

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Domino Effect

2010-01-21T20:05:00.002+08:00

domino effect

orang dapat baby, saya pun nak juga!

hihi.

my baby will arrived in

...........day(s)

sebenarnya, dah sampai miri.

but then since i'm not around they will hold it for me. till monday, teeeheee..

the x is soo worried with my recent acquisition

zura never learnt, he said

yup, i never supposed to tell you of my new baby

i knew it, you'll just freak out and go beserk.

okla, i'll tone down. i promise.

proof - i didn't even stop at any shop at klcc wpun the huge sign screaming 'SALE' is everywhere :p

so happy?

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Clueless Me

2010-01-16T21:45:00.005+08:00

clueless me

love is?

yes, i'm very inquisitive!

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part I

self-sacrifice?

anything but being selfish

so, is it love when you smile for someone's joy, yet your heart cried of pain inside for it

or is it plain stupidity?

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part II

pure torture?

just when i thought i can 'kumpul' my disappointments towards him

he then called me and we talked for almost an hour.

i did tell him that i was secretly hoping that he didn't call me at all, so that i will be mad at him and things will be less complicated

he then said, 'not a chance in haven, sayang'

would you just stop it already?

i really need to make my life less complicated

ineeddivineintervention

owh, saya mau solat istikharah tapi periodic la pulak kan!

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so, what is love?

care to tell me now?

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Eyes Don't Lie

2010-01-13T13:17:00.005+08:00

eyes don't lie

my eyes don't lie

i'm sorry that i'm such a crybaby,

i've tried very hard to contain my emotion, and yet again, my eyes defeated me

i know its not easy for you too, as i can hear it in your voice

i'm sorry that i've made it even harder for you to go jauh

the gurls are indeed very sweet, checking upon me, making sure i'm okay

but honestly,

if you ask me,

i'm not okay today,

but then I WILL BE okay, definitely.

because, i've made promise to you, dier.

p/s: diyana, thank you for the pictures. the one thing that keep me sane here, while waiting for my elmo :p

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Me and My Big Mouth Part II

2010-01-09T00:43:00.004+08:00

me and my big mouth part II

hello, my name is ms. stranger.

weird and out of place

i do feel like a stranger in my own home

i don't belong in your world

i will always be, the girl who doesn't fit in

so i guess, we will not be needing the survival kit after all

i don't need to be reminded again and again on how different we are

yup, truth hurts

but then, come to think of it,

it is just what i needed. right before you leave for the far-far away land

a wake up call, the answer to all of my prayers

owh, it hurts like hell.

till then,

xoxo, zurabes

Me and My Big Mouth

2010-01-04T23:03:00.005+08:00

me and my big mouth

truth, nothing but truth

i've told him my plans

is it bad?

the last time i did tell someone of my plans, he went looking for the door

i'm starting to freak out

and then went on asking him the very obvious question

'am i scaring you off with my plans?'

but then he said the sweetest thing that a guy could

"no dear, u'll have to do more than that to scare me off"

owh dear..

now i'm scared

till then,

xoxo,zurabes